Everything and Nothing

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

On writing - I'm now working on the suggestions in my main blog. Write about what I share in Google Reader. Write about what I tweet. Those are good starting points, but maybe I'll save them for the main blog where I could (or should) write "article quality" posts.

Yes, I'm obsessing again. So I'll let my main blog sit idle why I don't have that perfect post. Until then, I'll just keep the words coming in this blogspot. Release early, release often, just like in open source.

So I was at Joon's party. "indie" music people were there, with "bigger" stars later. The next night, I fetched my Mom from the last night Anabel Bosch's wake/party - she's college friends with Anabel's mom. I also found out that Ian and Allen Umali's mom is also my mom's friend. So I thought: why wasn't I really meant destined to follow that path.

I also get much envy for IT/tech people who manage to have band careers - or at least hobbies - on the side. Well of course I don't have much talent, but that didn't stop many of the people out there who persevered anyway. If it takes 10,000 hours to be good at something, I decided to put my 10,000 hours in programming and tech stuff. Guess by now I've put in enough, so I decided to cut back, "detechify," and do tech for work only. Maybe I'll get to rock more. If that's what I really want.

I did get some chances back in high school/college, but didn't pursue it further. A few years ago I had another chance but I couldn't keep it up. It doesn't help that loud, sharp sounds hurt my ears, making drumming a less than feasible option. I have considered learning other instruments to release the inner beats and melodies in my head.

There is a reason I'm glad I failed to become a rockstar. I probably wouldn't have handled the lifestyle. With my bipolar disorder problems, I could have gone off the deep end with all the stresses plus the alcohol and drugs that come with the culture. I just need to be content with the nerdy direction my life has taken.

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Saturday, January 24, 2009

Great party last night, Joon! Great to see you after years, and hang out with your gang.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Layoffs and other recession-credit-crunch stuff. The economy rebalancing its equations. Lately I've been reminiscing about my what-goes-up-must-come-downs, and career choices that became life decisions. Trying to make sense.


Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I get resume envy. Like from people with MBAs. Though I don't plan to take one myself.

Obama inauguration - now let's move forward!

Monday, January 19, 2009

Am I vain if I crush on a girl who looks like me?

Need to cut down on Facebook and Twitter. I can do it - just look at what you need to look at, don't stray.

Rockstar envy. But I couldn't have been one. Lack the talent. Don't have the personality. Would probably go mad. Good thing my 10,000 hours were spent elsewhere.

Trying Blogger again, for random posts off the top of my head. Unedited. Raw. No need to refine. Not all-revealing, since I'm not anonymous... but enough to let write away and empty my head.

Thought for today: gotta be prepared, don't know what will be happening.