I lack enthusiasm for life. A friend just observed that in me. After thinking about it a bit, I think it's true. I'm apathetic towards most things - I don't feel strongly for them, for or against.

The friend also can't understand why I am not interested in traveling. It really has no appeal for me.

One thing immediately good would be that I have someone to remind me to go to the gym. If you know me, you'd know that is very, very hard. It's like I have a mental block against it. I really need to get motivated so I'll feel better, live longer, and hopefully be less sickly.

Now I can get started working! No more feeling bad and looking at the past; instead, hoping for the future.